I am currently on a mission that I feel led to by the Lord that has slowly been revealed to me by many sources and finally pushed open abruptly by a dear friend of mine. This mission is to become a better man, the best me that I can be. During the discussion I had, I realized that I have an addiction to pornography. This addiction takes away from my relationships, as through pornography I seek answers to problems that cannot be solved temporarily. In an attempt pious jargon, I will try to refrain from use of further statements like that and make sure that the point is placed in front of you so that you may understand me more thoroughly. Here is the deal, I am incapable of distinctly separating artistic nudity and true beauty from pornographic material at my current broken state, so I must cut both off so that I may grow stronger as a man.

I understand that there is a difference between artistic nudity and porn, this is not the issue I am arguing, though. My argument is against myself. See, my friend told me a very harsh reality that I feel exists with more women than just her. In attempt to honor her, I am choosing to cut off all images that cause within me a sexually related arousal. I need to be focused on the beauty in my life, and so I cannot be spending time filling my mind with the falsehoods that exist when my broken thoughts come upon the image of a naked woman that I am not in an intimate relationship with. Its cheating and a sin against the person I would be having a relationship with, whether that be a friend, wife, or any such person. Also, it is a sin against the woman who I am gazing at. No matter whether or not they think about it, by looking so lustfully at such a woman, I am robbing her of any beauty of her character, and am essentially raping her in my own mind.

I do not want to continue on with this any longer. I do not want to think that any woman could be of lesser value to me than images of a woman that I will never speak to. I don't want to think that a woman may be of less value than porn. As a result, I am tearing it away from my life, God willing. The result of this is that I have put on my adult content filter and am removing all such images that I have stored in my collections and favourites, as well as any other images I happen by in the gallery that make me feel like I would stumble in this journey accordingly. I am sad, to a point, because I know that many of you have worked very hard to make your bodies and your art so well loved by many, but I cannot continue thinking of you in such fashions. I pray that you forgive me for this, and that you may not think ill of me because of this. I also hope that you understand that my reason for doing this is out of love, that I am not holding anything against you; that you may even find it in your heart to encourage me in this endeavor. Once again, I am sorry for doing this, especially if it is taken personally, for my intention is not an attack. If you believe in it and care enough, pray, if not, please try to be understanding.